I have never been one to be depressed around the holiday season. It's always a very busy time, lots of places to go, things to do, food to cook, decorations to hang and so on. This holiday is going to be different though.
I've finally decided to get rid of all those items I have been hanging onto that were dads. Shredding papers, getting things together for the tax return next year, wrapping up loose ends and things like that. It seems there are just as many people to call now as there was a year ago. It's not easier this year, just more matter-of-fact.
When I decorate, there will be some small voice in my head saying "dad should be here" or "last year dad was here with hospice" or "I'm not going to put this up because it belonged to dad." There will be so many variables it's hard to pin-point what it will look like.
With all that said, I'm looking forward to moving on to the next phase and being past all of those first year memories that have shown up, coincidently all year. Cooking turkey with all the trimmings, decorating the tree, hanging lights, wrapping presents and going to the parties I missed last year. What a celebration I can have now to honor dad's life.
Thanks for helping me move on. I have a very blessed life.
Tisha M Diffie
After the Fact - Final Affairs
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